The daylight has started stretching and I can feel myself falling into a beautiful rhythm.
Towards the beginning of last summer, I convinced myself that it was a good idea to get a couple jobs. I had just come back from living in Japan for a year with about $200 in my pocket and decided to jump back into the 9-5 world to help keep my head above water financially. At this time, I wasn’t in a good head space. I wasn’t sleeping well, I noticed my body weakened by my lack of appetite due to mental stress, and my anxiety levels were through the roof. I was running on fumes.
I would come home from both jobs with the same soulless feeling. Neither one of these jobs were fueling my creativity and I could feel it taking a toll.
I worked one of those jobs for 4 days.
I worked the other for one month.
I remember feeling scared that I was disappointing my bosses and the people around me when I called in to quit. I remember feeling embarrassed that I couldn’t hold down any kind of job without falling into a pit of anxiety and depression. I remember the moment I wiped the tears from my cheeks and chin, breathed a sigh of relief, and decided that at 25 years old, it was time to manifest the life I had so been wanting to live.
I began printing pictures I had saved in an “Inspiration” folder on my desktop. I glued them together, made a golden sign that read “May You Be Loved” (a meditation mantra that I have held onto for many years), bought a frame from the thrift store, and made myself my first vision board. I hung it on the wall across from my bed so that every morning I would wake up and see exactly what I wanted my life to look like.
6 months later, all 7 of those pictures that I woke up to each and every morning, and that beautiful mantra I have lived by for so long, have manifested themselves into my life so beautifully.
Here, let me show you…
The 7 pictures:
1) Tarot Cards
My beautiful mother gifted me with her tarot deck before she left for Europe last summer. I turned to them for inspiration around the time I began rethinking the two jobs I had started and soon, they became a daily practice and comfort to me. For now, it is a private practice but I’d love to eventually do readings for others. I wholeheartedly believe in their magical energy and spiritual healing capabilities. My go-to deck is the Wild Unknown Tarot Deck. Their illustrations are beautifully whimsical and really resonate with me.
2) Hiking and 3) Swimming Naked
The second and third pictures are simple, take more hikes and swim naked. I am happy to report that I have fulfilled both of those goals, and continue to do so as much as possible. ♥
4) An Airstream
I’ve wanted an airstream since I can remember. I had always envisioned myself renovating one and living rurally with a solar panel and woodburning stove. One day at the end of May last year, after listening to me go on and on about what I would do if I had one, my sister Kerstin turned to me and said: “Chloe, you’ve been talking about getting an airstream for years! What are you waiting for? GO GET ONE!”I realized in that moment, that it was about damn time!
We spent the entirety of last summer working together to find airstreams for sale online. This treasure hunt made for some beautiful road trips. We traveled from Kelowna to Portland looking for the perfect one (with
a few many thrifting stops in between), but it felt like each airstream we went to see was too expensive, too beat up, or they would be sold before we could even get ahold of the owner. By September I felt as though it wasn’t going to work out and that maybe my airstream was out there but wasn’t quite ready for me.
I know this might sound silly to some, but on the morning of September 8th, I had a premonition about something red coming into my life. That very same day, Kerstin sent me an ad for a 22ft 1976 bright red Airstream Argosy located about an hours drive from her house.
24 hours later, Kerstin sent me a picture of her standing in front of the beautiful red trailer with a big smile and her arms spread to the sky with the words “It’s yours!”
I cried and cried and cried. It was the most beautiful feeling.
Little Red is now parked on my sister’s 22-acre property surrounded by sunshine, sagebrush, and open air. I try to travel up there to work on her every month. I’m hoping to get her on the road by the end of the Spring. ♥
5) Long Road Trips
With Little Red being in the Okanagan and home being in Vancouver, I spend many hours on the road. Whether it be by bus or car, the ride there is about 4-5 hours of beautifully green deciduous to dry arid sagebrush and back again.
6) A Dog
My sister and her family recently adopted a sweet Redbone Coonhound called Ruby. She is a gorgeous red-coated pooch with loads of energy. With baby number four on the way for my sister and her husband, we’ve decided that I would take a more active role in taking care of and training Ruby. This will give them more time to focus on nesting and will ultimately be better for Ruby. I can’t wait to babysit the puppers and be an aunty for the 5th time!
I’ve known for a long time that I wanted to make pieces of jewelry to help inspire, comfort, and empower others.
I know this works for me. When I’m at all feeling nervous, uneasy, or even just in need of an extra boost of confidence, I put my favorite pieces on, and somehow this ritual of mine has manifested itself into a form of self-love. I find myself saying my meditation mantra “May You Be Loved” every time I place a piece of silver, rock, or antler on my skin. I know in the back of my head that I have made it through many difficult days wearing these same pieces before and that has always, and continues to empower me to overcome my adversities. It is a ritual I practice to this day.
After sharing this form of self-love with those around me, I’ve realized how many people wear specific bits of jewelry every day for empowerment, blessings, specific energies, courage, health, and much more.
Having grown up with an artistic mother, I’ve always had the freedom to dip my toe into any and every medium. After falling in love with silversmithing a few years ago when my mother spent a few days showing me the groundwork, I took a course to learn some more in-depth techniques and well, I haven’t stopped creating since.
I’ve set up my studio space in Vancouver and it’s portable enough to take with me on adventures with Little Red.
When I create like this, I feel I have enough. ♥
So here is the life I have manifested over the past year.
A life that makes me smile every damn day!
A life I am proud to have created for myself.
I hope the stories, photos, and adornments I share with you on this platform will inspire you to connect with your deepest aspirations.
Listen to your soul, and chase after your dreams with a full and fearless heart!
I believe in you
May You Be Loved